THE RAYMOND WE REMEMBER

GONG XI FA CAI

2012-01-23T20:51:00.003+08:00

Daddy

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Love Always
Girlfriends

Gone were the days

2012-01-08T14:00:00.002+08:00

Hubby

Those were the days we looked forward for u to come back from BKK and go outing with us...now...gone were they days.
Wife

Happy New Year to Daddy

2012-01-01T18:58:00.002+08:00

Daddy

Happy New Year 2 U...still missing u.

From ur galfrenzzzzz

Our 14th Wedding Anniversary

2011-11-21T21:46:00.003+08:00

Dear Hubby

Happy Anniversary!!

Wife

Our Gals make us proud

2011-11-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

Hi Hubby

See our gals make us proud.

Wife

Princesses become Young Lady

2011-10-26T18:59:00.002+08:00

Hubby

Our girls become pretty young lady

Wife

3rd Anniversary

2011-07-09T09:52:00.004+08:00

Hubby

It has been 3 years already.

Luv

Wife & Princesses

Happy Birthday

2011-05-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hubby

Happy birthday!!!!

From : ur girlfriends

CNY WITHOUT YOU

2011-02-26T11:10:00.003+08:00

happy new year bro! its been a long time since i blog. we had a wonderful time with all of them(mum,sisters,brother and all nieces n nephews). But u r not here.everyone seem to look happy but i know they share the same feeling as i do. austin came back for a week n we gathered at mum's house almost everyday to see him more often. u know, each time when i see him , it reminded me of you.

it break my heart totally. the memories of you start to appear right in front of me. the times we all share together seem like it happen yesterday.your voice is always heard from the kitchen to the living room.you sitting at the dinning table eating your hearts out, your funny gestures making everyone laugh.all these will always be remembered.

we visited you on the third day of CNY and also take some pictures but not uploaded yet. u will see it soon. so please , those involve in the picture taking on this day put them up quickly or else CH gugu will come and hit yr butt soon.

mum's health is not very good too , please help us to take care of her up there. if you happen to see dad, can both of you please visit anyone of us? its been a long time u n dad did not appear in our dream. will hope to see how u look like and how's life up there. i hope to see you n dad in my dream.

see you soon!

Gong Xi Gong Xi 2011

2011-02-03T09:43:00.004+08:00

Dear Papa

Lunar New Year again...u enjoy your celebration up there ok? We will enjoy ours here and will be mummy's good girls.

Ur Dearest Princesses
Jolyn & Jaslyn

Reunion Dinner 2011

2011-02-02T12:39:00.004+08:00

Hubby

This is the 3rd CNY that u r not with us. Miss u, miss u much. No one in this world will treat us jux like u did...absolutely none.

Loving U
ur 3 girlfriends

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T21:21:00.004+08:00

Hi Hubby

U left us 2.5yrs already...time flies. Jux to say happy new year and let u know we are still here, staying healthy (physically and mentally), happy and contented everyday. U dun hv to worry abt us as we r doing fine and coping well.

Mei will start her P1 on 4th Jan...I believe u can see from above and smiling. Jie will be P4 already, she has been arranged to take up buddy activity and might be arranged to help mei during her recess time. Our kids hv grown up le...sure u will be happy and pleased.

Miss u much
Wife & ur girlfriends

13th Wedding Anniversary

2010-11-21T18:00:00.004+08:00

Hubby

Happy Anniversary!!!

Wife

Finally Found the Golf Set for you

2010-08-10T18:23:00.007+08:00

Hi Papa

We found the golf set for you.

Love
Princesses

2nd Anniversary - 9th July 2010

2010-07-11T20:30:00.005+08:00

Hi daddy

Daddy, so fast 2 years already. We still miss you very much daddy.

Love
Jiejie, Meimei and mummy

Happy 42 Birthday

2010-05-12T19:54:00.005+08:00

Dear Papa

Happy 42 Birthday!!!!

Always Loving you
Your princesses & wife

happy birthday my brother

2010-05-12T19:44:00.002+08:00

Hey Bro,

I was chatting on msn this morning with Linda and she was telling me how the girls are behaving and getting involved in all school activities...especially Jolyn, She told me that today is your birthday... which I ashamedly admit that I did not know. They visited you last week...Linda said that the girls were asking her about your birthday...whether they will have a birthday cake for you...see they never forget you..you are still in their hearts...

it is coming close to 2 years that you left us...but you know that you have left a dent in all our lives in many ways that you can expect...but for selfish reasons.. i do wish you are still here... it does make me think that life is so unpredictable...one moment you are here the next you are not...

memories are best to be kept many say.. but when they starts to bring tears to your eyes...they are heartwrenching...i wish i was closer and talked to you more....sorry i did not....how many missed opportunities...

wherever you are...have a nice birthday....

CNY

2010-02-23T10:47:00.003+08:00

HI Chye Hin,

Long time no talk.. I was back for CNY last week and it was nice to see your two girls.. they have grown so much and jaslyn and jolyn are both so well behaved! We even had a massage from Jaslyn! They have turned out well indeed. You do not have to worry about them. Linda has taken good care of them.

We had yu sheng on 16 Jan (two days before I left) at Jackie's place. I held back my tears which I know it would have caused others to feel sad. But I know you were there looking at all of us.

Austin

Gong Xi Gong Xi to our papa

2010-02-18T15:58:00.005+08:00

Papa

Gong xi gong xi!!!

Your princesses

See what u have done

2010-02-16T10:44:00.002+08:00

Raymond

Did u see it? did u see it? Your hei mei and bao have grown into sensible and mature young ladies. Ain't you proud of them? I'm sure u definitely are and so am I.

Still loving you
Wife

2010-02-11T10:03:00.002+08:00

Dear CHYE HIN GUGU,

I am very grateful to you for making my sister so sensible. there are times when i see mummy and bao bao quarrel i feel so pain in the heart. it's like i led her to become like this. she's totally becoming like me when i always argue with mummy. just when i thought i let you down. i read bao bao's post & i found out. hey! chye hin gugu is still guiding her well. she's become more sensible. she still do quarrel with mum but very minimal. she understands the pain of losing someone close, so she'll learn to treasure people around her. this is all your efforts gugu! see how you can influence people around you? even after you left, whatever you did will forever guide us. your love care & concern will never be forgotten. and that's why i say, i'll make your princesses feel the love care & concern we all felt from their daddy.

your girls are very sensible too, so no worries. they know how to take care of themselves. they are no longer like last time when they always call for mummy or daddy when they need help. they try to resolve it themselves. slowly, i see them grow into sensible young girls and i feel so proud of them. you should be too, cos it was you who taught them well. them being sensible makes aunty linda's life easier. at least she wouldnt have to worry so much about them. your youngest daughter's super cute. i called her two days back asked them how they are and stuff. suddenly she just said "alyssa jie jie, you know now i skinniner alr!" haha! at first i was wondering what's skinniner. until she said "because jie jie always say i grow fat liao, then now i never eat ckicken wing when i come home already" haha! the word was SKINNIER. haha!i love her when's she's so cute. then your elder daughter would correct her when her lauguage use is wrong. so dont worry gugu, jolyn is a very responsible sister, im sure you know it very well. you can be relieved putting jolyn in charge. haha!

alright, i'm back to work.
CNY IS COMING. WISHING ALL OF YOU A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (((((((:

loves,
alyssa(:

2010-02-07T17:54:00.003+08:00

Dear Uncle Raymond,
I suddenly got the urge to post here too.
Recently, i had a Resilience Workshop in school.
My teachers asked us to talk about our personal lives.
When i heard my teacher talking about someone that
had affected his life so much, the first person i thought of,
was YOU. You have really affected my life greatly.
Until now, i still cant believe that im not able to see
you face to face. I still miss ur hugs, love and care.
I cant forget how you used to bring me and jie out.
9th of the month is coming again.
You have left us for 1 year plus already.
I still miss you and i know i will always do.
Im having my O levels this year.
I want to study really hard and get a good future.
I know thats what you want all of us to do.
I promised you i will and i will do so.
You have been my motivation.
For so many years, you have been there encouraging me.
With your support i scored well for my N levels.
But im upset you were not there to celebrate with me.
Even though i know how well i do for my O levels
you will not be here celebrating for me,
but i know you will always be proud and happy for me.
You will forever be living in my heart.
I miss you Chye Hin Gu Gu! I always do.
Im not gonna let you down.

Loving you always,
Amelia (:

I MISS YOU MY UNCLE!

2010-02-04T11:34:00.003+08:00

HELLO!

it's been a long time ever since i blogged here. i feel super guilty for making it so quiet here in your blog. fact is i've been working, and like too tired to even talk to bao & mum & gor. i havent been talking to your girls too. miss them many many. so, anyway, i applied for nursing in Ngee Ann and i got a place already. i know i've been indecisive in my twenty years of life, and now i know i dont have much time to waste, want to set a good example for your girls, since they are still young and still so innocent. this is the time where they learn very fast and watch all their jie jie and set them as role models. so, now since i've decided, I WANT TO SAVE LIVES. I WANT TO BE A NURSE. and i know you will support me one. i know i've chosen a very challenging job, and the schedule will be super hectic. but no worries, i'll definitely make time for the family and will do you proud i will not give up half way, and i'll prove that i can be very serious in my decision this time round.

so, as for your girls, i'll try as much as possible to make time for them. i'll call them when im free. especially jolyn. she's so occupied with school, must ask her how she is in school and all. i'm sure we've all been through the school life and we all knwo what it's like. i still rmb in secondary school, i was bullied and you stood up for me. you pick me up from school during that period. i was so touched. i must do the same for your girls. i'll let them know if there's anything they need, alyssa jie jie will help, definitely!

though you have left for 1&half years 26 days, i can still rmb clearly the day you left and that i can still feel your presence even till today. because everytime i thought it's the end already, there's always a solution to it. i know you've been guiding me. don't worry ah yees, it's not that i havent moved on. it's just that uncle raymond will always be my pillar of strength in everything i do and whenever i feel like giving up, thinking of him makes me stronger and move on. he was the super dad. even though he's my uncle, i treated him as my second dad, because he loved me.

i'll make an effort to update whenever i can(:

Long long time

2010-01-27T10:33:00.005+08:00

Uncle CH,

How are you? Sorry its been such a long time to write..Many things has been happening and i was thinking how nice if you were around to speak to me, to hear me out and to guide me...

I know i have not been with the family for some time now. But so many things happened these few months that I dont even have the time to really sit down and look at it..

Still miss you alot.. especially in times when i need a listening ear someone I can trust..

I know you can see what is happening but dont worry, I will make it through..as I have throughout the years.. And i know you brought Auntie Linda to me too! thanks!

Uncle CH, missing you...

Idiot lor (like wat Aunt BT will say).. sure tear each time i visit this blog...Go visit you also sure tear la...

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T10:31:00.001+08:00

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas...Cheers

Our 12th Wedding Anniversary

2009-11-21T20:53:00.004+08:00

Hubby,

Today is our 12th wedding anniversary.

Wife

1 st Annivasary

2009-07-11T10:47:00.002+08:00

hey bro,
i was there to c u n dad on 9/7/09. surprisingly,while talking to u, we (BH,BT) did not shed any tears at all in front of ourself. , we can still feel yr presence around us. and we also noe that u r watching us on top. i told jo n jackie that we should marked this day as our once a year appointment with u n bring u to west coast makan centre to eat yr favourite LOR MEE with us. u noe , the LOR MEE here is very good n deelicious, so u noe la hor, where we can go for another taste of yr favourite food.
i am surprise i did not even drop a tear when i was there.(jackie n jo must have cry the night b4,cos their eyes look so puffy) we linked everything we eat/see/do to u.cos we noe u will like to do these things with us when u r around.really wish you were here , sitting with us talking, over a cup of coffee. i believe this day will come when we meet up there, right brother? pls be patient. pls take good care of dad for me n yrself also.

BB

1 year - my Dear Brother

2009-07-07T05:38:00.003+08:00

i know this week is going to be tough...waking up at 5:40am today to write something here is definitely a clear sign of that...

almost a year ago, it was different...there was lots of anguish, sadness, anger and crying..

my dear brother, the past year has been a tough time for all of us, I believe, to come to terms about losing you.you might not be here physically with us but you will always be with us in our hearts.

wherever you are, look down on us and on your beautiful angels and wife....we will all be looking up

Austin

Happy B'Day Bro

2009-05-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

Hi CH,

Its been a long time since anyone of us wrote. Today is your b'day. This morning, Peter and myself went to your place. Wanted to see you, but the church was still not open. Well, just have to stand outside and say a little prayer for your lor. Daniel wanted to come down too after his exam this morning, but i told him "Gugu will be even happier if he would go home and study hard for his exam tomorrow". Right, Bro?? Remember the last b'day you had in your house. You were so weak but your spirit was high. Chye Hin, in us you are always so brave and strong.

Went to your house last week to give jab to your 2 girls. When Peter and myself reached your carpark. All those memories came flashing through our minds. We actually had a few moments at the carpart to compose ourselves before going up to your house. Idiot lah you, why must you leave us???????

Just hope that you are still with us lor..............................
Missing you always.

BT

2009-02-19T20:08:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

It was like yesterday when we were all gathering to play majong. The nites that we played till so late...we slept and then wake up to play again. In the midst of all these merry making, we all know that we missed you. It is definitely different without you.

To Pam, Bao2, Alyssa and Felicia...

Sorry that I made you all tear at some stage during my time back in Singapore. I know I am getting older thus talk also a bit more long winded....I am sure Uncle CH will also have the same conversation I had with all of you, if he was there. I know it is hard and your parents may not see eye to eye with you on certain things and being who you all are, having your own identities etc and the curious nature in all of you, we the old folks can sometime be a bore and nag. But we all did it out of love and concern. Remember what you plant today will be yours to sow when the time is ready. No one can choose your path except yourself...
I don't claim to understand all of you but would love to try to know and understand all of you. Even when you think no one else is there to hear you... just send me an email or sms me.

Uncle Austin

CNY

2009-01-28T10:53:00.001+08:00

Sai Wa De Ka,

Is CNY again, Bee Bee is right. Am sure all of us missed you being around. Yesterday we had our usual card game and guess what?? This year we all learned to play MJ. Bought a foldable table and Austin bought the MJ set. All the kids are into playing MJ too.

U know..when we were playing, you image kept flashing through me mind leh. Was hoping that you could be around us, laughing, teahcing and enjoying the new game with us. As usual lah, Jackie always the blurr one. Wow Tai Jie learned fast men, she learn belly fast. Well......... a few time, i want to mention your name.....but.... wori it may bring tears to all lor. Your two princess and wife came too. Mei Mei is bigger and better behave now. Joyln is so sweet, she shared with me that sometime she will try to teach her sister, but..... the young girl is always trying to siam lor.... Am proud with Joyln for that. Guess we all very much want you to be around us......especially this time of the year, but....sigh....Well am sure you are with us in spirit.

Missing you,

Bee Tee

MEMORIES OF YOU

2009-01-24T09:33:00.002+08:00

Brother,
Guess this is the first time we going to spend the CNY without u. i believe everybody in the family (include yr both angels n wife) will always remember the sweet times we share together.remember u drive us(all the Bees) all the way to choa chu kang to get sheng yu n seafood, help mum to prepare for Chinese New Year n bringing her wherever she need to go to.u never say no to her. if only u r still here to help her with all these. she will be very glad. anyway,

Austin is back for CNY this year. hope he will enjoy our reunion very much. hope he will have a change of heart to come back to Singapore PERMANENTLY. he may look strong , but his heart still feel heavy each time when he leave.Telling us he really wish to stay but then again WORK COMMITMENTS. Austin, we really want u to come back. u noe u r our only brother now, n we need u to be around ..

u r gone for 6 months. during these 6 months, things change, people change, weather change, but there is one thing that will never change. and that is , the thoughts of u . every time, while doing the tpa claim, i always come across a name "Tan Chye Hin"'s claim. i will pause for awhile, then yr memories will come to me again. each time when i talk about u to my children n yr wife. i noe i am selfish ,still clinging on to u, but u noe i am not the only one! there r someone out there too thinking of u too, don't want to let u go too! so don't blame me.i noe i must try to let go, but i tell u, saying is easy and doing it is difficult. i hope time can reverse when u r still here, then i will not have to TO LET YOU GO!
KAREN

Letting go..

2009-01-06T18:25:00.004+08:00

Its been a long time since i wrote anything or even coming here because even though we were all busy with our lives, its getting harder to let you go. And especially so during holidays or family gatherings. Am sure all of us somewhat sees your image, feel your presence with us and we all really wish we could just be able to hear your laughter again.

New Years Eve
While many people celebrated the countdown and had fun, I was very sure the aunties and grandma will think of you like i do. I tried to sms them to wish them and remind them to be strong but once the clock strikes 12, I was so sad..So sad that I cannot spend the first New Year or Chinese New Year with you.. I wondered what kind of funny sms you would have sent to us or maybe plan some events for us that day..

Grandma's birthday
While everyone tried their very best to keep smiling and joking, deep down i know it was very hard especially for Grandma. Even though i werent around to celebrate her birthday with you around last year, I remembered the photos you took. So funny and so happy. I wished i could be there with you. And just the day before while everyone was planning the dinner, I told myself 'If Uncle is here, he will sure be the first one to organize it and sure make it very happy and fun for everyone. Perhaps maybe getting his princesses to draw grandma a card or something.. " Because I know you love Grandma alot and you will ensure that she is happy on her birthday or any other day! The aunties know you are a filial son thats why i understand why they are making extra effort. Don't worry uncle, we know you want us to take good care of Grandma, we will! Its one of your wishes so we will do it!

Letting go..
To all the aunties and uncle and cousin,

Yesterday I met my GP who asked me if there was a death in the family recently. When i said yes, he said that Uncle is stuck. He is in between because we all still refuse to let him go. I broke down inside the clinic. How he know? Well, he said he sensed it. He said cut off the cord, let him go. He is going to be up there watching over all of you. Light a white candle for him and tell him he can go. That everything is taken care of here. But i just told my GP, its hard and we cannot bear to let him go..

I dont know how to react except cry..I dont know to believe or not. After thinking the whole night, I somehow believe it coz we all still imagine he is here, thinks he is just at the corner. I sometimes sit in my room looking at the corner and seeing him standing here watching over Cady's cot smiling..

Now i understand how it feels when my best fren told me before that after her mum passed away, she will break down everytime someones mention or something reminded her of her mum even till now. Emotional person or not, I just think its because I really miss you..alot..

So aunties, uncle austin and cousins, you think we should all light a white candle this weekend for Uncle?

Love, connie

Remembering You still

2009-01-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

CH

Last Friday, we brought mum out for dinner to celebrate her birthday- her 72nd. Thought we will do it before Jo and Pam went to Hong Kong.

You know just before dinner begins, mum mention you to me (you are not he to eat with us) ...... it brought immediate tears to my eyes. Yes, it seems like only recently that we had that dinner with mum at the teochew restaurant. You were clowning around alot and brought much laughter to the occasion. Wished you were once again the clown.... but all these can only be in our memories and only be seen through the pictures taken then.

I am still thankful that we had this occasion, though many could not make it.... especially your family. Every occasion is worth remembering especially those spent with our loved ones..... and this year, we have our little spark "Caddy" who brought much joy with her ever cheerful disposition. What a gem! I am sure you must be very proud of your little grand niece!

We still want to remember you for who you are to us bro:

Loving, Caring and Cheerful son, husband, father, brother and uncle and granduncle!

Love
Jackie

remembering you

2009-01-04T18:46:00.001+08:00

2008-12-25T21:53:00.003+08:00

Hey All,

I know it has been very hard for all of us this year....especially so with all the holidays...

Last week, I came back one night and frantically searched for this song by Bob Carlisle, Butterfly Kisses (the video above). Tears filled my eyes and before I know I started thinking about Jolyn and Jaslyn.....

It saddens me as I know CH would have loved to see them grow up...Up there he will be looking down....every year as they grow up...

Jolyn and Jaslyn - I am putting this video for both of you because though your dad is not here this song epitomises how he feels, I am sure.

Austin

2008-12-12T04:53:00.003+08:00

Dear all,

I know I've been MIA for some time now! Been having my exams. And... tomorrow (=your today=friday) will be my last one! After which I would have all the time and leisure to upload photos and update my blog. I miss you guys dearly, so it'll be great if we could skype on Saturday. Enjoy your reunion with Jo! :D

Can't wait to see you guys in a month's time.

Love loads,
Cher

2008-12-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

This is specially wrote to Mum.
I happen to read the past two posts that you had posted.
Im really sad to see you so upset. Seriously, you seldom talk to me about what exactly you are feeling inside but im glad you told me everything yesterday. Its true that the ambience was totally different at Grandma's house yesterday. I agree that everyone can actually feel something missing but we all just didnt want to speak our mind as we do not want to make one another sad. Sometimes when we talk, "GUGU" will suddenly just come to our mind. Wanting to talk about him but afraid to create sadness so we chose to keep quiet. Sometimes i find that writing how you feel in this blog is the best way. Maybe you do not want to express your feelings to all of us on Saturday's gathering but writing in this blog may be the best choice for you. Its better than hiding all your feelings inside yourself. I know everyone need to time to get over this, some of us may take a short time, long time or maybe even forever. So mum, don worry. No one is rushing you. Take your time and pleasee cheer up! Your laughter is always the one that make us all laugh together with you on Saturdays :D

Now, to Uncle Raymond:
Its going to reach the 9th of the month again. Time passes so quickly. On the coming 9th of December will be the 5th month since you left all of us. Until today, i will still shed tears whenever i listen to your favourite songs, think of you and even when i see pictures of you. Looking at pictures make me remember the past. I realised that i never stepped into your house again after your funeral. I guess i do not dare. Im really afraid. Afraid that when i reach your house, i will just keep on crying. There are really too many memories of you everywhere i go. Going to your house will be worst. I still remember last time, i was not close with you. But because of Alyssa, i suddenly became very close with you. You started talking to me about my school life, bringing me and Alyssa to the temple every Sunday and not long after, you even ask us to go to your house and stay every Friday. Then we will also have breakfast at the so called CENTRAL at your house nearby. Hais.... There are really lots of memories. I spent 15 years of my life with you and it can never be forgotten. Thinking about how i didnt cherish the care and love you gave me make me real guilty. Until today, i really wish i can tell you right infront of you that IM SORRY! Im really sorry. Even though everyone keep telling me that you don blame me anymore because of the previous incident, but im still very guilty. Maybe because you never really told me that you forgive me that's why. I still remember that i promise you i will study very hard and show you my progress report whenever i get it. I promise to take care of my mum and of course of your princesses Jaslyn and Jolyn too. To make myself not feeling so guilty, I am really trying very hard to keep up to my promises. That made me feel better. Even though i improved alot for my End-Of-Year, but im really upset as i could'nt let you see my progress report. I will still continue to strive harder for even better results and i will never forget the promises and everything you have done for me. I love you and i miss you alot Uncle Raymond! Please appear in my dreams to at least let me say Sorry to you :(

With love and misses,
Amelia

SATURDAY GATHERING AT MAMA HOUSE

2008-12-06T22:38:00.002+08:00

Today is the first time we are at mum's house after u r gone. The embience is so different without u around. we have lesser people today,(aaron,alyssa,amelia,pam,sam,dan Jackie, Jo Mum and me). yr children n wife r at Genting again,so we would only c them next week. Like usual, we would just sit there n talk, but something seem to b missing? is so quiet and we don't seem to talk alot too. i remember we always have endless things to say, like when u would be back from Thailand,wat we would do when u come back. wat to cook for u and u would also call us n ask if we need anything from there? all these memories flashes thru' my mind. As if it happen yesterday.everyone will b excited when they r told that u r coming back.
Though we don't speak about u, but i believe we do missed u. sitting at the dinning table eating, talking in the living room, mum's bed where u always sleep, these are the memories we have now. really wish u r still here. missed yr presence, missed yr voice, missed yr action and lastly MISSED U VERY VERY MUCH,BROTHER!!!!!!!!

KAREN

BELLY

2008-12-05T13:02:00.003+08:00

Yr children n wife were at my place on tues. we were so happy to c them. i was sick for a week with cough and diarrhea n they did not want to disturb me. My children played with yr princesses as usual. They were dancing high n low with the HSM at aaron's room. And as usual me n yr wife talk in the room. We were recollecting yr memories when u r still around. i should have let u speak yr mind when i last saw u at my house that afternoon. I really regret i stop u . wat was i thinking?
Each time when we talk about u there is always tears. still can't get over everything u know!
CH! It look n sound easy but sometimes looking at the wallpaper on my laptop, i will cry again.
Anyway, while sending them to the lift, yr little princess came to me and hug n kiss my tummy.
she said like daddy one n daddy is inside. suddenly, i feel my eyes was teary. i can never be like u, bro. Iknow u want us to get on with our lives, but for me is gonna take me a long long long time. so b patient with me. i promise u i will go to church n i will. when i know is time i will let u know first okay?

karen

hello

2008-12-04T20:59:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

I am now back in HK. I was away in Shanghai for 5 and half weeks. Nice to see all the posts and the video. Hope all is well with everybody.

Austin

Christmas Party At Quick Residence

2008-12-03T20:58:00.004+08:00

Dear Republicans,

To cater better to our guest, the menu wil have a slight change with these ADDITIONAL food :

D.I.Y Kueh Pai Ti
Jumbo Chicken Satay w Condiments
Nonya Laksa
Bua Kuluak Fried Rice w Turkey Ham
Devil Chicken
Ikan Kuah Lada
Spicy Grilled Prawns
Mutton Rendang
Nonya Chap Chye
Bo Bo Cha Cha
Lime Juice

Mee Siam and finger food will be TAKEN out of the menu.

May God Bless All of You and Merry Christmas!!

CHRISTMAS EVE PARTAYY(:

2008-11-29T20:15:00.003+08:00

To all republicans,

You are cordially invited to a Christmas Party at the Quick residence on the eve of christmas. 24th of december, after 4pm.
Menu for the day:

mac and cheese
honey black pepper ham
country style meat loaf
german pork knuckle(:
mee siam(:
finger food
lasagna[aunty jackie]
salad[aunty jackie]

That will be all, if you would like to bring any food, PLEASE check the menu first.

THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS.

p.s just come with an empty stomach to enjoy the food and the spirit of CHRISTMAS!

love felicia(:

Our 11th Wedding Anniversary

2008-11-21T19:14:00.005+08:00

Hubby

Today is our 11th wedding anniversary.

Meimei said that this little baby with sunglass looks like daddy.

Wife

Jolyn Cried Her Heart Out

2008-11-06T18:56:00.009+08:00

Hubby

Today on the way home from school, she told me that "if Sri din go back, Uliyah won't come then won't hv chance to give papa wrong medicine...then papa won't die"...then she started to cry very sadly. I told her "Jesus brought papa to heaven to enjoy his fruits" but she said "I'm still so young." I told her that if she feels like crying ... then jux cry...then she started to cry very loud and very sad. I told her that at this moment we might not know the real purpose why Jesus has to bring u away so soon...but I'm sure we will know the answer one day. I know she has all these questions in her head but I told her...we all miss u. Whenever we feel and want u to come back...we hv to think whether we want u to suffer and continue to endure the pain. I reminded her that she granted Jesus permission to bring u away cos she dun wan daddy to suffer..dun wan daddy in pain. She drew a picture of our wedding and then top right corner...u became an angel already cos u have gone to heaven.
She will look at the sky at night and she told me that there is one star very bright and big. She told me that this star is daddy. Whenever we go NTUC, she will look for that star and make sure this star follows us to central. She feels that you are watching over us like a star. She agrees that what we have now are all the happy memories of daddy.

We miss u.

Wife n ur princesses

2008-10-31T17:23:00.003+08:00

Hi guys,

just wanna say sorry about not sharing or calling much coz its been very tough time for me. HArdly anytime to breathe - work, baby, work, baby .. But Saturday's party was like a few hours of break from my daily routine so thank you Auntie Linda, Jackie and all for the party! Oh, most importantly to Jolyn! Muaks! read the Little prince comics ok!? It was great to see Grandma there too!

Sorry guys, i promised to do those mini food for Uncle Raymond and Gong Gong but havent.. I will try my best to do it before Christmas.. "CDD, come back and help me! arghh!!"

Thanks Auntie Jackie for msn-ing with me so late into the night and giving such wonderful advices about parenting.
Auntie Jo, I need a few hours of your time alone to catch up man!
Cousins, think need you guys to help me on something this holiday...will discuss with you guys tomorrow!

Ok gotta get back to work before rushing home to Cady..bye for now. Cya tmr!

Uncle Raymond, thanks for that message on the radio the other day!! Still missing you!

2008-10-30T04:01:00.002+08:00

Well, for a similar reason, Germany is now 7 hours behind instead of 6!

I hope the party went well! I bet you guys had fun eating and doing wacky stuff as usual. did you guys play Twister? i miss playing that with all of you! we gotta play it when i'm back yea? :D

Dear Jolyn,

You're a year older now! I am very very very very proud of you for being such a brave and sensible girl. we are STRONG GIRLS, yea? In two months' time i'll be back to see you again, and we'll do lots of fun stuff together! Meanwhile, be good and God bless. (:

Love,
Cheryl Jie Jie

2008-10-26T05:14:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody!

Just to let you know, the UK is now 8 hours behind Singapore, as of 12 midnight on the 26 October. yup
http://www.bbc.co.uk/weather/features/science_nature/clocks.shtml
Just wanted to let you know.aha. ( for one day in autumn, London has a 23 hour day!)

btw. HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY JOLLYYYNNNNNNNN~ XD
too bad i can't join you guys for HSM, but i'll have one month (welll almost) with you guys soon
*muah*

LOVE AND MISS YOU ALLLLLL~

love jo

Jolyn"s birthday

2008-10-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

Hi Bro

Today, we celebrated your 1st princess's birthday at AM. Its just a simple gathering where all the cousins came together to share a meal which your dear wife had graciously arranged.

I am also glad that mum came along very early. She was a little quiet but otherwise we can see that she had tried her very best to mingle with all of us, including the children.

The highlight of the day was Aaron's kind and generous treat to all his cousins to the movie, High School Musical. In fact, this was arranged specially for the birthday girl !

I hope that Jolyn had enjoyed today and tomorrow will bring more fun as well.

So Jolyn, Jackie Kuku pray that the Lord Jesus continues to keep you in His Love and Favour in whatever you do. That He will continue to guide you in His wisdom and cause you to rise above all things and circumstances to be a champion child of the Most High God!

Love you Jolyn
Jackie Kuku

2008-10-23T13:52:00.002+08:00

Everyone,
any news on the trip to zoo with uncle peter ? pls confirm with aunt josephine on this sat.

ATTENTION REPUBLICANS!!!!!!

2008-10-22T16:02:00.002+08:00

ATTENTION REPUBLICANS !!!!!!(to be concerned)
Please note that i am booking all of you for High School Musical 3 on Mon (27 Oct 08)! Time is yet to be confirmed. Please let me know if you guys are able to make it by this Sat (25 Oct 08), during dearest Jolyn's birthday bash!

Tickets are on me! So please let me know soon!

Cheers!

Aaron

Invitation to Jolyn's 7th Birthday Celebration

2008-10-20T08:20:00.003+08:00

Dear Republican

This celebration will be held at Astrid Meadows clubhouse from 4pm till 11pm. Buffet has been arranged to arrive on 25 Oct approx. 4pm. If you want to prepare additional food, please make sure no duplication of dishes...hehe. Dishes are as follow : (1) Sin Chow Mee Hoon (2) Braised Beancurd (3) Sweet & Sour Fish (4) Steam Soon Kueh (5) Mini Chocolate Eclair (6) Sotong Yu Tiao (7) Curry Chicken (8) Almond Jelly w Longan (9) Otah (10) Birthday cakes (jolyn).

Auntie Linda

hello

2008-10-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

Dear All,

Sorry that I did not write sooner. Been busy since I got back. It was nice to have many big feasts when I was back. To Connie who went all the way to Tiong Bahru to buy all the food which brought back lots of memories, thank you. To Karen for the liam kueh what can I say... delicious. Thank you all for sending me at the airport.. it is not easy everytime I say goodbye. As I turned and walked through the immigration, my heart always sink.

Jackie thank you for putting me up at the "Astrid Hotel'. Your house has now become an epi-centre of activities for all of us to congregate. I believe in our midst of feasting over the weekend, CH is looking down at us and saying tong buey tiao. All of us in our hearts are still healing and even when we don't talk about it... all of us still miss him very dearly.

Saturday was an emotional day for me when we moved Dad's urn and put it together with CH at telok ayer. Da Jie's crying and seeing all of you tear, I told myself, be strong... need to be strong. I bit my lips hard when we collected Dad from Poh Huat Road because I told myself I cannot cry because I need to be strong. But seeing both CH and Dad together, i have mixed feelings. One of happiness and one of sadness.

This may be because when both of them passed away I was there. I remembered the nite that Dad passed away... coming back to see him sitting there on the chair....and then being there to see CH passed away...it is a feeling that I cannot forget. It would be nice that tomorrow when I wake up Dad and CH will still be there. Perhaps in my dreams.

Austin

2008-10-15T06:48:00.008+08:00

Dear darlings,

Hope you are all doing well back at home. As much as I'm savouring my student exchange experiences, I miss all of you. I have seen the photos taken on the day you guys moved ah gong and chye hin gu gu, and I couldn't help but shed a few tears thinking of them. Those tears are mostly happy tears though, since it is just heartwarming to think of ah gong and gu gu reuniting with each other and watching us from up above. They are our guardian angels, no matter where we are. Jo, I hope you are adapting well and having fun in England! Take care of yourself yea? Go for all that you believe in; I have faith in you (:

And guess what? My blog is ready! Visit it quick at let-us-ramble.livejournal.com. Take care and have fun, everyone!

Love,
Cher

I LOVE YOU DADDY

2008-10-12T21:01:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

FROM: JASLYN TAY SHI HUI

2008-10-12T20:24:00.014+08:00

DADDY WENT INTO MY DREAM

Hello daddy, You have a new home with gong gong.
In my dream,I dropped my slippers downstairs our house. Then, A cat bite my slippers.
Daddy went to kick the cat , but the cat bite daddy's leg. Then, mummy used her hand and hit the cat's head.
i got exam tomorrow, you must 支持我!
i'll miss you, love you and remember you.

BY: JOLYN TAY SHI EN

Aren't you proud of our princesses?

2008-10-07T19:40:00.015+08:00

Hubby

Jolyn called me from school today, she told me that she saw this set of erasers and she thought that you might like it so she bought for you. Then I asked her whether she has enough $? She told me that she left $0.90 so she can buy black black rice ($0.50) and a nugget ($0.30). She wants to buy this for you so it is ok to eat lesser. She always keeps you in her heart and mind...always. She told me that last night she dreamt of you protecting her from a wild cat. You are always our protector...always.

Wife

Dear all loved ones

Jolyn wrote this statement in her manual facebook "Dear family, I know u miss my daddy don't worry because he's in your heart. by Jolyn Tay Date 7/10/08". We have been worrying about this kid whether she is ok, whether she is coping well with her dad’s passing..I think it is a relief to us to know that she keeps her dad in her heart (like how she drew her dad in this picture). Let’s move on and dun disappoint her…ok?

Linda

Comforting just to see you again

2008-10-02T10:21:00.003+08:00

Unlce CH,

I was driving up the slope on the ECP to Benjamin Sheares bridge as usual on my way to work today. And as always, I will look up to the sky and miss you. Suddenly I remembered you appeared in my dreams yesterday! It brought tears to my eyes.

I cannot remember if you spoke to me but its enough just to see you. I realised its your way to comfort me when I am down or worried because so far whenever you appear to me, its always during a time when I am pretty lost or worried or down. But i keep forgetting to tell you things that i want to tell you in my dreams and sit down and chat with you!

For the aunties and cousins sake, it was quite a messy dream and i could only remember a part here and a part there but i remember very clearly seeing Uncle.. It was a dream about my new maid generally. I dreamt I changed another new maid but that maid turned out weird. Fast forward and we are all in the Clementi flat ( as like our usual Saturday gathering). Auntie Jackie was seated with me on the floor next to the sofa (next to the room doors) where Uncle and my dad usually sleeps. The wall was still beige, the TV cabinet was still on the opposite wall and the sofa was still the BLock 48 sofa we had..Auntie Jo was seated on the sofa and Auntie Karen was seated on the floor in front of the TV cabinet..I couldnt remember where are the kids but I could hear kids laughter and all.. Then the gate opened, and Uncle CH walked in with baby toddler Jolyn. It was like Jolyn has just started to walk like Cady. And Uncle CH was a bit bended down to support Jolyn. Followed by Auntie Linda, his wife..I remember all auntie Jo said " Oh they are here!" but I was surprised! I looked at Auntie Jackie and she smiled.. But i started to cry..Uncle CH look at me, smiling, but I just sit there and cried. The last thing I remembered was Auntie Jackie saying ' Silly girl, he is home'.. Here is a picture of how he look like in my dream.

As i am msn-ing Auntie Linda this morning, she told me we moving Uncle and gong gong to their new resting place.. And i wonder, is he telling me he is at home? anyway, Thank you Uncle coz you knew I needed some consoling. And seeing you comforts me alot..but it also made me miss you terribly today...there is still a 'Uncle Raymond' in my cellphone addresss book, can i speed dial that?

Miss you, my beloved Uncle Raymond..

Your 1st niece, Connie.

Memories Of You still Very Strong.

2008-10-01T15:18:00.005+08:00

Reading all yr posts make me very very upset. I cry n cry until my nose cannot take it anymore. my mucus flow like tears, non stopped.

Why do u have to go so soon! I really missed u being around all of us. I believe i am not the only one who think u r really gone.Each day pass, i still have thoughts of u everywhere. U know, that day i saw a man in the orange shirt u once wore during mum's birthday dinner. I just stand there n look from a distance. The moment he turned , i realised it is not u. it is so difficult to let go yr memories just like that. though everyone behave like nothings wrong, but deep inside all our hearts there is still "YOU". U r always in everyone's heart and mind.We try not to speak about u, but cannot leh. When we all gather at Jackie's house, we will always link u in our conversation. As if u r still with us, u r around us n joining us in the talk.This is one thing we can't change. We talk about yr past, that bring back memories of u. Jo and me were on the way to mum's house that day to meet the contractor (mum's toilet repair issue),suddenly she cried when we talk . I believe she really wish u were there for her. I think she can't accept the fact u r gone and u would be there with her to manage mum. She maybe one that is always to give medical advises to all of us but deep inside her she had always wanted to cry out loud but she can't cos she had to be there for all of us. That's BT lor everyone! CH hope u quickly come to her dream soon. She really need to talk to u.

Too Soon

2008-09-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

CH

While the plane was cruising down the runway to bring me home on Wed from where I left my dear daughter, memories of you and what you said came flashing in front of me.

You wrote on my palm when you were on the hospital bed that "it was too soon, too many changes, and too sad" It must have been very tremendous for you to bear and we all around you will never ever be able to feel for you. It pains me everytime I remember those words and wished sometimes that I could help to bear some of your suffering. But I am reminded that we are all human but that only God knows how to alleviate the pain you had. To look on the other way, I rejoice that even though time is marching away every second from us and never coming back, changes are ever so constantly taking place, it will never be too soon or too sad for we know that we all have a destination - and that is to be able to see you and be reunited in victory and glory in the house of the Lord.

In the meantime, I believe that every of your loved ones down here will continue to journey on in united strength and spirit, keeping you ever so dearly in our hearts and knowing that we will meet again in a far better place - our heavenly home!

Jackie

2008-09-24T22:51:00.005+08:00

hey all,

rachel has requested her blog to be linked to uncle chye hin's blog. so i thought i might as well link joanna's blog too. now, just have to wait for cheryl jie's link. this way, we could just click on their links to find out how they're doing.

anyway, thanks aunty linda for the wedding photos you tagged me on facebook. im so touched when i saw them. gugu was holding me in every single photographs. thanks so much!

oh yah aunty linda, mummy also asked you to give her a call or on msn when she's in the office tmr, about coming over on fri (:

love, alyssa

Still miss you...

2008-09-22T12:25:00.003+08:00

I want to write about something that happened on Saturday that made me miss Uncle CH alot again. I was walking home with my baby and my maid, crossing the road that leads to the carpark when I saw something! My heart raced.. I saw someone that was very 'prosperous', wearing a big white t-shirt, gold rimmed glasses and pushing a pram! For that instant I stared at him coz I thought I saw uncle CH!!!!! I just stood there carrying my baby and stared at that man walking towards us and I called out, Uncle Chye HIn? I think I was loud enough for him to hear coz he gave me a weird look. But because I am short-sighted, I had to really strain my eyes to get a better look at this man still walking towards us..Only when he was across the small lane then i got a better look at his face. I was still standing there like a statue staring at him holding Cady.. My maid also stopped behind me and might be wondering whats is going on. The man kept looking at me then his baby in the pram and then turn to look at his wife walking behind him. I wanted to much to take a photo with my phone but I dunno why I just stood there. When they walk past me, both of them gave me a very very weird look but smiled to me. After they left then i realised, I was standing there smiling at them like a ah seow!

Coincidently, there was a Christian funeral below my block and walking past (far away) I saw the deceased photo in the same white flowered frame as Uncle's. My heart sank. I think I was quite blur after that coz I only remember that i suddenly just cried in the bathroom missing Uncle Ch. I suddenly miss his voice and seeing him in front of me walking, eating, etc.. I like his smile and his cracking sound of his voice saying 'Dont worreeee'..

Uncle CH, thanks for sending my new maid to me, I know I need to be patient and calm.. I am trying to control my temper..miss you sooooooo much today...

Alyssa, can we upload a video of him here so we can see him again? Thank you!

Connie jie jie.

Good morning Singapore!

2008-09-20T10:51:00.002+08:00

Hi all beloved

Sitting here in the novotel writing this at 3:55am greenwich time. Jo still snoring in bed and me? as usual cannot sleep. It must be my body clock or just getting nervous not getting enough of Jo before leaving her behind.

Agree with Jo, Greenwich is a better place - being small and less congested - air fresher and oh goodness, so much sun and strong one too! in the midst of the cool. Wore my whole suit of thermal and still can feel chilly.

Central London was ok if not for the places of interest. We both did quite a bit of walking and exploring though not much of shopping, if thats what my dear sisters are thinking that I would do. Its amazing how much we both walked and sometimes we even walked into places we did not plan - like when we were actually looking for covent garden and accidentally came upon Trafalgar Square. Though at the end of the day, it can be very tiring but cos of weather, it became bearable - must admit sometimes my legs does feel painful and numb. But its all worth it - walking is good exercise and besides can save money mah!

The 1st day was good for me cos I get to visit Hill Song London - preaching very much like Pastor Prince's and so good to be in the house of the Lord. Then came Oxford street drama when we saw 3 black guys brushing pass us - oh goodness! - realised that it was a robbery when I saw one of the guys with a red handbag! It frightened the day light out of us for the whole walk down oxford.

2nd day experience was a little uncomfortable when we had to take a bus about 45 mins or more to the south to get Jo's account at HSBC started. We had to walk down this narrow lane in Deptford area full of black people. Can't help imagining what we usually see on TV that it can be quite threatening, not knowing what to expect. We got everything sorted and got out of the place as quickly as we could.

The trip to St Paul's church yielded much satisfaction for me. We got to climb about a 2 to 3 hundred steps up to the gallery looking down and around the surrounding which was a spectacular sight - I did not get to do that when I was there more than 10 years ago. I thoroughly enjoyed myself especially when I was Queen for the day after that at the Buckingham Palace. You see people -the real Queen was away on holiday in Scotland thats why I can be one for the day! Armed with the headphones provided with commentary and royal music along with it made one really feel like a royalty. I actually asked Jo to hold my hand like a Queen when I pretended to stroll down the humongous building with very big rooms filled with ancient art pieces which was so rich of history ! The dinning room itself is full of grandeur! Wish its my house so that all you lovely people can party all day. And oh by the way, Austin - I actually feel honoured to have contributed a little on the palace ground! No need for SEnekot!

Oh goodness, I have written so much already. Better not choked up the blog site. Maybe I will write more when we move into Jo's hostel in a few hours time and if we are in luck for better internet connection!

Bye people for now. BTW, the wound on my right knee has healed though the left knee still blue black. Thank you for all your concern! So sad actually, that I got my pants torn and had to throw away. Hoo, hooooooo :(

Jackie

2008-09-19T17:21:00.002+08:00

harloe harloe
jonaaanaaa heerrreee! sorry if i haven't been able to talk proper with you guys, today i'm able to get STABLE internet access cos the hotel we're staying at is supperr larrrr. much better than the one in the city: royal national hotel, we're staying at novotel at greenwich--pronounced gren- witch

anyway friends, like cheryl jie have a personal blog too, don't want to clog up the posts here!

weather's been good theses days cos we're in greenwich- we're still in london, just this is the south-east area, the air's fresher cos there's less traffic :D very prett place with clear blue skies and SUN. gawd the sunnn so niceee and warrrmmmm <3
anyway dears, here's the link

http://spotlightkids.livejournal.com

just leave a comment k? as for pictures i'll post a few on my livejournal and most of it on facebook, so cousins, let your mudders see ok?

(btw, can someone drug my mudder once she gets back, she cannot sleep well here too :( her eyes really look unhealthy and small..)

anyway, you take care y'all

much love from auntie jackie/jackie gugu and jo

依然想念你

2008-09-15T10:35:00.009+08:00

老公

昨天去教会, 看到了你的影子…到处都是你的影子. 我看到你赞美的样子, 走路的样子…还有种种.

每当听到牧师讲道关于要有乐观的想法才会有正面的效果. 口里承认, 心里相信, 那神就会成就. 但是我想到我们当初是多么的乐观对代你的病情, 一直期望神能制造奇迹. 但是我们没看到反而神把你从我的身边带走而且是永远的带走(值得安慰的是你在这段生病期间接受了神). 坦白说, 我很失望和生气当神把你带走. 但是, 昨天我似乎得到了答案. 当神说给我们丰盛的生命, 富足与富裕的享受, 医治等等..一切都是灵命的. 我们知道我们的身体是暂时性唯独灵命是永久的. 你已得到了永远的医治, 永恒的富足和享受…这是对你最好的回报也是我们每一个信徒最期待的. 虽然是太早了很多点..但是我相信神早已经是安排了这一天让你安息的. 你的一生的路那么艰辛到了近几年你才过得比较好, 可惜病毒却在这个时候找上门来. 神把你带回祂的身边也是对你的一种解脱虽然我们大家都会伤心和心痛但我们知道你去了一个更好的地方. 我感觉得到你一直都在我和孩子们的身边…看护着和保护着我们. 我和孩子们也一直的把你放在我们的内心深处不会把你遗忘.

昨天我和大女儿讲起你, 我问她会伤心吗? 会想爸爸吗? 她回答我 ‘会’ 我问她 ‘哪怎么办?’ 她说 ‘没关系, 我把爸爸放在心里就可以了.’ 你是否为我们这个乖巧懂事的女儿感到自豪和安慰. 我问她 ‘哪如果朋友问起你的爸爸怎么办?’ 她说 ‘跟他们说爸爸去泰国工作囖.’ 你不必为我们担心, 有这两个可爱, 乖巧和懂事的孩子…一切都会顺利的而且有你和神的看护…一切都会迎刃而解的.

安息吧, 老公.

唯独你的, 永远爱你和挂念你的
老婆

2008-09-15T07:08:00.002+08:00

HOLA!

I haven't forgotten about everyone, if that's what you're beginning to suspect. In fact, for two nights straight, I dreamt of all of you! Including Uncle Austin :D So happy to have all of you accompany me through the night! I forgot if I told you guys, but I've intended to set up a separate blog devoted to my European adventures - so as not to clog up this blog with all my enthusiastic entries - all these while. It's a livejournal blog, cos I very much prefer that to blogspot. HOWEVER, contrary to my belief, I couldn't simply copy and paste my blogskin html from my previous personal blog to this new one cos the moderators updated their system. So I'm still in the process of modifying it. AND... school term has started, and though I only have 6 hours of lessons per week, I have lots of readings to do. SO, give me a wee bit more time. I'll make sure it'll be up as soon as possible - especially since I've got so much to share with you guys!

Uncle Austin, I'm so so so glad you'll be home soon (though I won't be there!). I'm sure you'll get all your food requests fulfilled and you'll be one very contented man. And no worries, I'm sure Jo is perfectly competent and will do well in the UK :D

The weather in Germany is turning cold. Last week i still got to enjoy Singaporean-ish weather (minus the humidity, thank God), but this week it falls below 10 degree Celsius at times. But I'll always make sure I'm as well wrapped as a delicious-looking ba zhang (glutinous rice dumpling), so no worries! And to quell your curiosities, I shall now upload some photos of the breathtaking views I get to behold from my hostel room. I get to watch the sunset everyday, and beautiful skyscapes always make me feel that gu gu is in Germany with me (:

I know these photos are a bit small but like I said, I don't wanna choke up this blog! So you shall see them bigger and clearer on my personal blog soon. Meanwhile all of you take good care of yourselves and one another yea? MMMMMUACKS.

Loving and missing all of you,
Cher

Hello - Updates

2008-09-13T22:09:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone...

I have just spoken to Jo and Jackie who are with all the gang in Changi.... so much excitement..
Just hope that both of them don't suffer from constipation... but it is ok because UK has a brand called SENOKOT. I think CHYE HIN staring down at all of you laughing...

Chye Hin

Jo will be there for four years but I am sure it will be good for her. To be exposed to the world and will be a successful in her art as you believe she will be...You know Jackie will be sad but I am sure Pammy and Sammy will ensure she is not.

Jo, as I said to you on the phone, please email me if you need any help in UK. Please do not worry about your mom and sisters, they will be fine. Enjoy the studying life in Uni. I sure did when I was in UNI. Trust me when you start to work, you will miss UNI life.

Jackie, as I said also to you on the phone, Jo will be fine. Don't have to worry about her. It will be good for her to be independent just like Cheryl.

Cheryl,

Hope you are enjoying Heidelberg. Please send photos.

To all the rest of the nieces and nephews,

you all know how and where to reach me. Just another piece of good news....

I will be flying back to Singapore on 3 Oct - arriving midnight
to 6 Oct where I need to check in to the hotel

I will stay from 7 Oct to 10 Oct for work. Leaving the hotel on the 10 Oct. But will be leaving Singapore on the 12 Oct morning flight.

So, food request please....

Liam Kueh with extra chilli!
Mee Hoon Kueh also

BTW - now taking requests for anything from HK

Ausitn

2008-09-12T10:33:00.004+08:00

Uncle CH,

today i got very mixed feelings..happy that I can finally get rid of the maid, worried abt how the new maid will be, sad coz joanna will be leaving, sianz coz Auntie Jackie will be away for almost 2 weeks, worried abt Cheryl coz been unable to webcam her these few days..etc.etc..

For the past weeks, everytime i get worried, I'd always consol myself saying you will help me just like the many times i felt that you did. So, i really hope and want this new maid to work out and can really take some burden off my shoulders so i can do more things. I somehow sense you are sending Dolly to Cadence just like the way you sent Tata to your queen and princesses..Once that part is settled, then i can do what i have to do..

Today is 12th Sept, 2 months since I saw you physically..still cannot believe you are no longer here with us and its still hard not to tear when thinking of you. I wonder sometimes what advice you will give me for Cadence..I really wish i could just sms 'uncle raymond' on my hp and you will reply.. Maybe you will still be in Bangkok, flying back just to send Joanna and Auntie Jackie to UK tomorrow. Or even offer to help me drive my maid back to the agency and perhaps call me out for lunch. That day, I heard my colleague sang 'Yi sheng He qui (Mandarin)' or YAK SANG HOR KAO', i cried coz I remembered you.. I remembered in Lower delta road where we all sit on the floor watching this drama series that has this song..I know you are still with us, looking over us but I wish I could hug you just one more time.

Uncle CH, we miss you so much. No one can take your place in our hearts, never!

Joanna - take care of yourself in UK. Dont worry too much, we will take care of your mudder and sammy and am sure Pammee will ensure everything is in order at home! Just concentrate on what you have to do now so that you can take good care of your mudder when you come back. Your mudder will not be so free with us around..She will be busy making her life better! Remember to blog here, call home or msn regularly with your cousins..

CDD 2 - miss ya heaps! Once you settled down, remember to check for me and Auntie Jackie on good products there! I will be busy with the new maid so will try webcam you next week! Cady is fine and loving browsing and messing her books. Now she spends more time at the mini library messing her books then at the toys areas! And she is concentrating more when I read to her.. She loves GOODNIGHT MOON! Hey, must show me the German version of Little prince when you come back hor..

Auntie Jackie - sms us when at the airport coming home ok? Dont worry about Joanna la..she will be fine. she has her daddy god to take great care of her and protect her..

Uncle Austin - when you coming back ah?

Love, Connie

2 MONTHS AFTER YOU LEFT US

2008-09-10T13:36:00.003+08:00

Hi Chye Hin,

Sa Wa Ti Ka!! Yestereday was 2 months since you left us. Still missing you & your call, checking w me what to eat and asking me where are we going this Saturday. Words can't express how much we all missed you and your playfulness. Felicia had lost her SiFu and Dan had lost his favourite Uncle Chye Hin.

Anyway, Cheryl had left for Germany last week. Had reminded her that she should not comes back with studs all over. Remember??? this was your worry when u will around. Btw, Joanna will be leaving this saturday too. So sad to see them leaving. Chye Hin, if you are around, am sure you were also be sad, right? Now that you are up there, please pray for them. Pray that they will be protected from all evil and harm.

Tell u something, sometme i still feel angry with GOD lor. Why must HE take you away from us so soon.........sigh..... I know.. i know... i have to let go and move on... but.....aiyah... whenever i see your picture in my house... i just can't help crying lor.... then my kids will throw me the tissue box. Especially whenever i see your blog, my tears will just keep flowing lor. Aiyah, lousy me, right???

Btw Bro, why todate u still have not come to my dream leh? m still waiting lor.

Missing You......

Bee Tee

2008-09-05T13:16:00.005+08:00

Guten Tag!

I'm settling in well in Germany, but I've still got some admin matters, like setting up my bank account, that I have to attend to today. So you guys gotta wait (at this point of time i left my room to shit - see, a sign of adapting well: no constipation!) for some time before my first actual blog entry arrive yea. For those who didn't know - that'll be all of you I guess, since I made no mention of this previously - my school is built in a castle, so it's really beautiful. and my hostel room faces a harbour. Being the artsy-fartsy literature major, I'm certainly not a fan of industrial sights but the view can get rather pretty at night. In between my hostel and the harbour there's a canal (which is really quite clean, unlike the ones you get in Singapore) in which white swans dwell. Just a preview for all of you! I promise you more detailed updates complete with pretty photos. (: Okay I gotta wash up and head down to the bank and supermarket soon.

Love and miss you all,
Cher/Ah girl/CDD 2/Cheryl jie jie/Tua yi/Absiest Abs Habs

(Almost forgot! For those who haven't gotten me on msn, it's wlfan87@hotmail.com. I've got some international student events to attend today so most of you will already be in dreamland by the time i get online. But I'll be online as and when I'm available in my hostel room so I believe I'll catch y'all real soon.)

Cheryl, pls blog as much

2008-09-05T00:56:00.001+08:00

Cheryl, pls blog as much as you can so we know how you doing in Germany...

Love, CDD 1 and CDD3

2008-09-03T18:31:00.004+08:00

Yes, this is my first time blogging here, and i know you guys might be thinking "what took you so long, pam?"
Honestly, i just didn't want to deal with it.deal with gugu's passing.not that i didn't care, but because i knew that whatever i felt and am still feeling now could not be expressed clearly on this blog.i occupied myself with so many things to try to get away from thinking of gugu, trying not to visit the blog so frequent cos i knew it wouldn't help me get over him being gone.(and i knew gugu wouldn't want us being sad, but rather us living a joyful life)so i never wrote here.plus the fact that i know i'll just break down while writing this(and i was right)

The first few times when i visited this blog, it was heart warming yet heart wrenching for me.Heart warming, cos even though Gugu has left us physically, the impact he left with us is still evident in our lives.Heart wrenching because everytime i come here, i'm reminded of him, and how i never really got the chance to be close to him like the other cousins.
I guess a big part of me is still very guilty at the times in the past where i'd get jealous that gugu didn't seem to love me as much as the rest.Since young, all i had for him was respect as an uncle, but nothing close to knowing him personally.I remember when i was younger(before my father left us), i'd always feel abit out of place.somehow, being showered with material goods by my dad couldn't compare to the love that gugu showered on alyssa and bao.I saw a different kind of love.one that i didn't really get from my own dad.so being the jealous kid i was, i didn't care to be close to gugu cos i felt that the love wasn't reciprocated.
but i was deeply wrong.
that car ride i had with gugu was more than enough to tell me that he loved me no matter what.it was after we sent austin gugu off to the airport, and i had to be at my church friend's house after.he offered to send me there, and what i thought was going to be an awkward quiet car ride turned out to be the turning point for my relationship with gugu.he talked to me, told me how he felt about the way i was doing things with my life, and gave me advice through his own life stories.showing me that he bothered to tell me all this, just warmed my heart.However, it also made me feel so upset with myself that i actually thought i needed to be accepted by him to be loved by him.made me feel upset with myself that all this while i always felt abit jealous that i wasn't close to him like the rest.
But it was clear to me then that even though he rarely showed it, i knew he'd always care for me.

I'm sorry for not coming to share my feelings after his passing.I still feel guilty that i never made a point to talk to him more when he was around.And being the emotional wreck that i am, i knew that visiting this blog would make me cry and yearn to speak to him again.to have just one more chance.just to tell him i love him.and how grateful i am to him.

He made such an impact on my life.His frequent calls to ask how we were, the arrangements he made for us when we went to Thailand.but more importantly, showing me the real meaning of being a 'family'.
When i was younger, i used to think that it could never happen to us.having a broken family that is.so it came as a big blow when my dad left us.i felt so lost.so unloved.
but this 4+ (or5) years have only made me stronger.more independent.more matured(even though i know i still have a long way to go in this aspect)more caring.more loving.more selfless.more understanding.growing into someone which i don't think could have happened if my dad was still around.because then, i wouldn't have realised who my true family were.you guys.

there was once i was waiting for my mummy to fetch me from school.it was around 6plus in the evening, and i was seated at the bleachers facing the field.the view was..perfect in every way.well, fine i won't go all the way to calling it was perfect(though i did).but, close to spectacular.the sky was a graduated tint from pastel blue to peachy-pink with a tinch of orange.and right in the middle, a rainbow(no not the round bridge-like ones.it looked more like lighting crashing to the ground, except in a spectra of colours)i'm not much of a fan for rainbows, but this was an exception.my eyes started brimming with..well you know the rest.and all i was thinking was 'if only gugu was here to see it'.
but then it dawned upon how much the view and the rainbow resembled gugu.somehow orange was always associated with gugu.maybe cos he was the cheerful big man we all knew.and though i was really down that day, that made me feel so much better.think gugu knew and wanted to show me that he'll always be there for me.watching over me.

Anyway, im supposed to be getting ready to leave for the airport to send cheryl off now.Cheryl, tcare of yourself there ok!we'll miss you dearly.<3 I'll leave you with one last thought.
Well i always thought that my dad leaving was a terrible thing that happened to us,and nothing good could come out of it.but i was wrong.cos because he left, i'm who i am today, and i know there are so many more people who care for me and my family.likewise, gugu's departure from this Earth was unbearable and i still can't believe he's gone.but i keep telling myself, that something good will always come out from this.It's evident that we have all grown a whole lot closer, and i just know that our Daddy God will provide for Gugu's family no matter what.So let's all try to look on the brigher side of things.Cos something awesome is in store for all of us.

With all my love,
Pammy.

Hong Kong Trip 2008

2008-09-03T11:38:00.005+08:00

Hubby

We went to the chalet on friday and celebrated Jaslyn's birthday on saturday (30 Aug). This is the first birthday celebration without you....the feeling and mood is so different cos someone important is missing here.

I fulfilled our promise to the kids. We promised the kids that we will bring them to Hongkong in Sep...we really did now. Even though u were not physically with us, but I know that u were there with us. U were with us chasing after the disney characters, getting them to sign on the autograph book and took pictures with them. We watched the parade, their showtimes and took the rides. When I was there, I somehow was able to visualise ur reaction, ur contented smile (to see how our kids enjoyed), ur know-how of moving around (shopping) and many many things...I know u were with us. This was our first holiday without u, not easy cos this is one of the places we went together before...miss u very much.

We went to the 'Lost & Found' counter to claim our kids' bags which were not brought along to Hongkong. The officer told us that we cannot claim our bags at that hour cos already past midnight. Then before that I couldn't find my car key and I thought it was inside one of the bag. After telling the officer that my car key might be in there, she was very nice to make exception for me and we waited for the bags. Finally, the bags came at 1am and the kids were so happy to see their bags again. You know, at that moment, how I wish I can claim you at the 'Lost & Found' counter too. I really wish I can see the officer bring you to me....silly isn't it, but that was really what I was hoping for and wish it could really happen.

Still missing u badly

Wife

2008-09-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

Dear CH

From Austin, I am so so glad that your princesses enjoyed themselves. You must be smiling from where you are to see your loved ones so happy - knowing you selfless nature!Though you may not be with them physically, I believe they have brought you along with them in their hearts!

Bro, we had quite a gathering at the chalet last weekend - 24 people squeezing into the 2 storey 1 room chalet and a big 5 men tent. I believe the children enjoyed themselves being together and it must be quite a sacrifice for them as much as for the adults!

We celebrated Jaslin and Rochelle's birthday and were blessed with a sumptious buffet dinner given by your wife. Mum also came that night.

The kids also went bowling at the bowling alley you brought them the last time too!

I know I shouldn't be living in the "if only" world, but my heart really wish you were there with us.

When the 4 of us, Tah-jie, BB, Mei Hang and I were lying on the beach that wee hour of the morning(erm....actually we have no place to sleep in the chalet!), I really felt that the family have really gotten so close and can't help feeling so grateful that the family spirit (the family man you are) you have left behind has so cemented everyone. I am really surprised that Tah-jie was so sporting to brave the cold with us , not forgetting Mei Hang sacrificing the comfort of her own bed also spent the night chilling out at the beach. I felt so warm though our surrounding was so cold. Again, I wish you were there!

Perhaps, we have all been carrying memories of you in our heart wherever we are and though we try not to talk about it, I believe it must have been everybody's wish that you were there with us - - - in person!

Good night and I still miss you bro!

Your angel

DISNEYLAND

2008-09-01T22:59:00.004+08:00

Dear Bro,

I spoke to your wife and one of your princesses (Jolyn) this evening as they were in Disneyland waiting for the fireworks. Apparently they were there the whole day... Linda mentioned walk until the legs were painful. But she said it was worth it. I am so glad that they enjoyed themselves. Jolyn told me all about the book she bought with all the signatures of the characters except Snow White who was in the castle. You must have been looking at them from above and ensure that the weather was good. The forecast was supposingly showers but it did not..

I know it was your wish that you wanted to bring them to Disneyland when you recover...I am so glad that i can act as your proxy to fulfil this wish of yours. Thank you for allowing me to do that.

Austin

BIRTHDAY CARD

2008-08-31T20:09:00.009+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE,

I am back (suffering from a jetlag) but managed to meet up with Linda and the two princesses today. I was told to deliver the special lavender potion (only 8! Linda will try to get some more!)

The girls were so happy and I was glad that I met them. I have managed to get Linda and the girls free entry (connection lah) for Disney Land. I am sure they will have a good time with their cousins, aunties and uncles.

Thank you for the big birthday card... just wondering can get any bigger or not... so KS.

Cheryl, - Enjoy yourself in Deutscheland for I sure did. I had the pork knuckle and also the weiner wurst at Nuremberg. All the trinken and essen! Das ist zuper lecker!

Jo - for you I will strongly recommend the roast pork/beef for sunday lunch as it comes with yorkshire pudding! Have fun in the UK and please contact my contacts when you are there to touchbase. YOu will have lots of fun to see the museums, art galleries (TATE MODERN I strongly recommend and also the National Gallery at Trafalgar Square). And of course the theatres... you will be spoilt for choices! And of course you must eat the quinntessential SCONES!

Bao2 and Alyssa - Well Done with the good results!

Cadence and Connie - happy belated birthday

All others - all the food looked so good lor!....

BB - the food I mentioned earlier is not green noodles lah.... it is the triangle carrot cake that Dad used to buy for breakfast and we will dip in our own chilli.... that one lah.

Ok people, need to go and close my eyes now... Before I go... I have one picture below.. can any one guess what it does? When i saw it in action, I just had to take a picture of it

Austin

2008-08-31T00:54:00.001+08:00

happy birthday uncle austin!...love, connie and cadence..

49th day since you left us

2008-08-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

Dearest Bro

Today, we had lunch, BT, BB, Jo and I at IMM and BT reminded us that yesterday was the 49th day since you left. I felt a tug at my heart though I believe that you are in a better place than all of us, I actually have thoughts that I expressed to Jo, which must be frightening to her.

BB dreamnt that you , Dad and I were sitting under the tree and I was telling Jo that perhaps I may be the next to be called into God's mansion. It really makes me just want to do the needful.. So I said "I love you" to our sister BB this afternoon. I just don't want to miss out what I feel my heart to do. I want to let everyone in my family know that despite of misunderstanding, differences in opinion and a little friction here and there, I want everyone in my family to know including my dad and you who has gone on ahead of us, "I love each and every one of you dearly!" I just wish now that mum will humble herself and accept us into her life and let us all love and take care of her, like we have promised you.

Please talk to Jesus to help each and everyone of us here to know His truth, speak His truth and walk His truth and that we all can belong to one big family of God and have a great reunion with you and Dad in heaven.

I am very happy to see the picture that you and your wife have picked. It was a picture of a beautiful couple so in love. It warms my heart to know that you have loved and now being loved - despite not being with us here in person. We will always know that you are a faithful servant of God, loving husband and daddy, a filial son, a caring brother and an exemplary uncle!
I will always cherished the time we had together and I am still missing you!

Tomorrow, we are all gathering at the chalet and I sure hope that mum will join us.

Talk to you again.

Love, your angel

Cadence 1st birthday

2008-08-27T23:35:00.005+08:00

Uncle Chye Hin,

How are you? Was I really dreaming of you that night? Of walking down the streets and passing the many faces of you? From Blk 48 schooling you to the NS moustache you, to the prosperous you at Clementi, to the married you than to the Chinese New year 2008 you that i saw? Again you didnt speak to me but you know, its your voice i miss so much..

I know you love your grand niece and sorry, I only knew that you said sorry to me on 12 July 2008. I think it was you who send Pamela to sit beside me and tell me this..She said you ask them to pass me a message - Sorry that you cannot attend Cady's birthday. Its ok, my beloved uncle. I know you are always near me and looking over Cady and me. And I want to thank you because I know its you who sent someone to help me with Cady's birthday.

I couldnt find any sesame street things for the kids party. Searched from Orchard to Bugis to Jurong but still cannot find any sesame street themed party packs. They all said its due to licencing problems so not many people are selling Sesame street things anymore. I almost gave up and thought just order the elmo balloons from a small opened shop at Parkway. The owner offered to help call the ex distributor of Sesame Street stuff for me but still I wasnt very hopeful. But you heard me right? I secretly thought maybe you will help me! And what I didnt expect the next day was this stranger actually drove all the way down to the old distributor himself and called me to tell me what he had found and if I wanted it! Including stickers, party poppers, noise makers, plates, cup, table cloth and party bags! And the sales lady from Isetan actually also help me to contact another distributor to get the Sesame Street mobile straps and Fork & spoon set! Truly this is a blessing!

And you know what happened next right? I almost fell into a trap. I almost did what I always hated to my sisters. I almost punished my sisters for something that they did not do. But luckily I realise it before it was too late..And I almost hindered my baby from being loved. Anyway its over and i am really happy everything turned out beautifully. Thats because you sent those strangers, Cheryl, Wenhui and your wife, Auntie Linda to me..They helped me. It was Auntie Linda's words that made me put my faith in you and just go do it..Although it wasnt direct but maybe being in your room somehow reminded me again that you sent me back to the family to do what you want me to do..So I cannot give up. I must fulfil my promise to you.

Lastly, you told Cadence to remember you..So everyyear, i promise, I will take a photo of Cady with you and show it to her when she grows up so she will remember she HAS a grand uncle raymond who is such a great man and who loves her and her mummy very much.. We love you too and we miss you very much! HUG HUG..

wishes for Austin Gu Gu

2008-08-27T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hello people,

Have you all forgotten about the big card we were supposed to sign and give to Austin Gu Gu when Auntie Linda goes over to Hong Kong.

P l e a s s s s s e remember to remind me to bring it along on Friday so that we can all put out 'paw' prints on the card. Ok

Thanks.
Auntie Jackie

Gong gong and Chye Hin GuGu

2008-08-27T17:29:00.003+08:00

Thousands apologies guys,
I was on the blog today . As i was browsing through all the post, i came across this particular one mentioning about gong gong and chye hin gugu meeting one another. I realised i did not share this one with you all. (only with aunty jo and...........)

i was in this big garden with gong gong and chye hin gu gu. as usual, gugu always with the nieces and nephew doing someting at one corner. he was like playing and joking with the elder nieces and nephews. on the other side of the garden sat Gong Gong , under this very big tree that can give all of us shelter. He was giving out somethings to the younger grandchildren. he mistook rachel as baobao. and guess who was sitting next to him , helping him with the distribution? it's you, JACKIE! you must be very happy now, right? as for me , i woke up with tears in my eyes.
i do not know what does that mean? maybe he is scolding me for not being a good sister or maybe i did not vissit him for so long.
Sorry i did not share with you guys earlier, i only share it with aunty jo in the office.i don't remember the actual date, but is recently.
Everybody, i believe our chye hin gugu had already meet up with GongGong up there and are having their precious times. and i am relieve to say that Gong Gong is really up there. i once had a dream he was in between heaven and down there, but after this dream i am certain he is really up in the heaven, very happy, with chye hin gugu by his side and they can take care of each other.i really miss the memories of us staying at Block 4, 237-S. we were so young and always having great times playing near the park downstairs. That's where we had the "GREEN NOODLES"with lots of crunchy "BAH POH" on top of it.
REMEMBER, MY SISTERS !

I WISH THAT I COULD TURN BACK THE CLOCK.

My mummy...................

2008-08-27T15:19:00.002+08:00

Actually, even Friday is 1/2 day, i have to help my teacher in school from 2.30-5.30p.m.(estimated maybe can be till 6p.m.)

So maybe go the Challet late ...

Oh ya! mummy want to buy VERY very very the nice Chocolate eclairs will it be fine?

And....... Either one of us will pass the medicines , handiplasts to Joanna jie jie on that day as mummy bought it already!

So...................Cya Republicans!

Rachel Tay
27/08/08

Praise God!

2008-08-27T12:21:00.002+08:00

Just got news that Jo's uk visa has been approved. Praise God for another hurdle crossed. More to come Lord and I know that through the valleys in our life, you will bring us all to higher planes - the highest mountain - Mount Zion! Going to pick up this afternoon already ha ha ha!

Jackie

Chalet

2008-08-25T10:35:00.005+08:00

Dear All

Buffet has been arranged to arrive on 30 Aug approx. 3-4pm. If you want to prepare additional food, please make sure no duplication of dishes...hehe. Dishes are as follow :

(1) Malay Fried Rice (2) Wheat Prawn (3) Sweet & Sour Fish (4) Cauliflower & Mushroom (5) Hong Kong Noodle (6) Deep fried mixed rolls (7) Curry Chicken (8) Yam Paste w ginko nuts (9) Mini fruit tarts (10) Packet drinks (11) Birthday cakes (jaslyn & rochelle)

No of pax : 30 pax

Auntie Linda

Selecting our wedding photo

2008-08-24T18:04:00.009+08:00

Hi Hubby

Thank you for coming into my dream again last night.

In my dream, we were going through the whole pile of our wedding photographs and we selected this photo for our marble plaque. After selecting, we went to bukit timah market and u ordered ur favourite cai tao kuey with extra chilli from the usual stall...while waiting for the food...u told me that no need to place the 'model' of ur favourite food at the niche. U disappeared before the food came...I was left alone to finish the cai tao kuey...so sad. I asked the uncle to fry one more (take away) and I told the uncle (whom we always 'bong cang') that u have gone to heaven...and uncle said...'oh so sad...i will fry his style jux for him'. This uncle is so nice, right?

Dear republicans, please do me this favour. I have posted the photo (which uncle and I have selected) so when it is my time (being called back)...please remember to use the photo for our plaque. This photo can be found in our wedding album. Thank you very much.

Loving u always
Wife

thank you !

2008-08-24T15:49:00.008+08:00

Firstly,thanks for everything yesterday (23/08/08) like the goodies,playground thingy,cupcakes and the catering..( i love the name of the foods like 'Disney on ice') haha am i too childish? (Refer to jie jie connie)

Secondly,thank you for fetching us home i now admit that i amm not that good at the road sorri ah ! But i appreciated it !! Daniel and Felicia were like 'who is cleverer ?' In fact they both are clever.But the fun part was like rebekah was giving Daniel some stupid jokes hahaha ! Can you imagine time went soooooo fast? (Refer to auntie Joe,Daniel and Felicia)

Thirdly,thank you for opening your house door to invite us into your house!We even took home some stickers and notebooks etc. Thank you giving me some tips to some problems with HIM in future. (Refer to aunty Jackie)

Lastly, Thank you everyone for playing,fetching,inviting,opening and 'da paoing'(Refer to EVERYONE of the republicans)

I would like to wish again to my niece(non other than Cadence),

HAPPY BELATED 1st BIRTHDAY CADENCE !!

Bye Bye

Rachel Tay

Finally but not enough

2008-08-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

My dearest bro,

This morning I saw you sitting in your living room. You look very much the same, your plump self. It was pretty rowdy with kids running around. You and I were sitting down when Jaslin came running towards me. She allowed me to smell her little baby head and I exclaim that it really smell good. She told me she had taken her shower. I told her wah! so early you wake up and bathe already. She was so happy and dance away. Then came Jolyn, also wanting me to smell her head. She too smelled good. You then asked me if I was going to Orchard Road after 1 plus, to which I said no and asked you why. You told me that you thought my mother in law lives there and you mentioned something like block 158. It puzzled me and just then I was awoken by some thing that was bothering me. - Sigh -........
I wished we could continue with our conversation. Perhaps tonight? Bro, I wish I could call and share with you like I used to so you can encourage me in my down moments. Missing you!

Your angel

2008-08-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

heys im jealous alrights???? no one congrats me for getting full marks for my common test. hahas. but i didnt tell you all from the start so cant blame you people. hahas. im happy. even thought the rest of my subjects didnt turn out well, but i believe i can continue to work harder. getting full marks was the happiest thing i had. i wish gugu was here and will congratulate me. the previous time i was suppose to show him my progress report that i pass all my subjects. now. i want to show him that i did not only pass but with flying colours. i know you will be proud of me. and i also can guess that no one will expect me to get full marks? i want gugu to be proud of me. i promise him i will study hard and i know thats his wish for all of us so i will. and i also know we all cousins will. so don worry gugu. rest in peace!!! I MISSES YOU AND LOVES YOU PLENTY! [:

BAO WAS HERE[:

2008-08-21T15:56:00.004+08:00

I PASSED MY LCCI EXAMINATIONS WITH DISTINCTION!

i'm sure gugu's proud of me. now, i need to work extra harder for my A levels, so gugu won't worry about me anymore.

yest, KPMG came to my school for a talk and mentioned about ACCA-KPMG scholarship for A-level students. it's a 3 year course and after that, guaduates can work at KPMG. but of cos, A level grades must be good first. the scholarship can be taken full-time or part-time. i'll probably want to consider it. SO, i must first get my grades.

i'll cont'd to work hard, and gugu must be my motivator!
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-alyssa

Nice........

2008-08-20T14:01:00.002+08:00

Wow! Such a nice card you received! Sorri never go your b'dae but......
I WILL SEE U THIS SATURDAY (for cady's b'dae)!!!! Another ........haiz ........ i on that day got party at a'bout 4pm......How?HOW?HOW???? never mind... Seeeeee how 1sssttttt ok ? or anyone give me some Suggestions

Buaiiizzz
People of 'REPUBLICS'
Rachel

Cadence looking up at you!

2008-08-20T02:04:00.003+08:00

Uncle Chye Hin,

We took this photo today and instantly you knew what i was thinking. When I saw this photo, I thought of you. That cady was looking up at you!

My first birthday with the Tay Family but without you

2008-08-17T19:03:00.005+08:00

Uncle Chye Hin,

Yesterday the cousins and the aunties celebrated my birthday with my fave Oreo Cheese Cake. Your princesses even drew my their own personalise birthday cards.. All their gestures melted my heart but i cried..Because the cousins printed a birthday 'card' that had my fave photo of us at your birthday and you carrying 1 day old Cady... that instance I just cried seeing you. Because this is the first birthday in 10 years that I celebrated with the TAY family but you are not there with us physically. Your princess Jolyn even said that you asked her to wish me 'Happy Birthday'.. that night, I hope i really could see you in my dreams to wish my happy birthday..

I will always remember you said ' Remember me' when I left your house after celebrating your birthday on Mothers' Day. This birthday is a very weird one, its pretty extreme and intense. its extremely touching and happy for me because even though I wasnt around for almost 10 years, the family bonded is still there and even stronger now but its extremely sad for me not to be able to celebrate with Uncle Austin and especially YOU!.. I miss you so much.. I am a year older meaning I should be another year wiser..Well, I learnt alot this year especially the past months and I know your graciousness and selflessness will be the biggest lesson I have learnt! There are too many stories and too many kinds of people out there, its scary.. All i know now is I have to remain dedicated to raise up my child well. Doesnt matter if others think otherwise about my way.. As long as I feel its the best for her and I did my best, the rest is up to her.. Today Cady 'cruise' to the side table and pick up the handset then started pressing some buttons on the phone.. then cutely, she placed the handset next to her ears and talked!!!! I hope she could dial and speak to you!

P.S. I think even my maid thinks I am weird smelling your clothes..hee.. Love you!!! Oh ya, time to lose the weight on my tummy man... its getting too prosperous!!

Uncle Austin,

Here is the picture of your fave food. Its also Uncle Chye Hin and my fave food. I am so grateful to Auntie Jackie and Jo for arranging Grandma to cook this on the day the celebrate my birthday.. I even wanted to ta-bao some back for supper but it was empty already! Maybe I should start learning these dishes from Grandma soon...Anyway , here's what you missed!!!!!!!!

and laksa rice by Auntie JAckie, Mutton Rendang, Beef rendang and Assam Fish! Sedap!

Auntie Jackie and Jo,

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart! Thank you! Thank you! But erm,.. no more good food pls otherwise the tummy just refuse to go down..Then i have to resort to dieting! hahaha...

Cher,

Thanks for remembering the Oreo Cheese Cake! Hugs Hugs..

To all my cousins,

Thank you for being there! Love you all! Muaks!!!!

Finally, my turn

2008-08-17T15:05:00.007+08:00

Hi Yi Zhang

Thank you for coming into my dream last night. The usual activity we had in the past and now...mahjong...hehe. U appeared the same round round u in ur favourite blue t-shirt. The funny thing is u dun noe how to play mahjong in my dream lei when in real life u were the expert. Is it now u up there...God says cannot play? So "fei(4)" ur skills? Someone was teaching u how to play in my dream.

I still remember, u took me on a bicycle ride when I was young.

Thank you thank you..finally I get to see u.

One of ur favourite nieces

Joey Lye

When ur younger princess arrived_03-09-2004

2008-08-17T14:58:00.002+08:00

When ur Elder Princess arrived_26-10-2001

2008-08-17T14:51:00.007+08:00

Hubby

I remember u went home to mop the floor and tidy up the house. You said "I mop floor liao..now house is cleaned waiting for u and baby to go home."

U are a great man...I'm so blessed to have u as my husband. Thank you.

Always thinking of u

Wife

Some more pictures from Bangkok

2008-08-17T11:54:00.002+08:00

2008-08-16T23:40:00.001+08:00

Dear Chye Hin gugu,

I'm doing a 10k competitive run for you tomorrow. Please be there to cheer me on! :D

Looking forward to seeing you there,
With loads of love,
Cher

2008-08-14T20:06:00.003+08:00

Hello... sorry have been busy with work. Very tempting with all the food.. but those who know me well, would know that there is one food that is not yet featured in this blog... I tried to look for the picture but to no avail!

Been busy and frustrated with work at the moment as most things do not seem to go the way I wanted. I actually wrote a curt email yesterday to an annoying colleague. She really make my day as I was fuming mad by what she said. It did not help that I was already very bogged down with other work. I went around my business feeling so angry..... but somehow a voice told me...let it go...let all the anger go...

I felt as if Chye Hin was telling me....don't let that bring you down... you are above it all.. don't despair... things will change soon and you will see the fruits of your labour. I know that would be exactly what you would say.... i have been too busy to stop and listen... thank you for slowing me down and letting me hear....

Chye Hin, in my job I observe people alot but not myself. I thought alot about how you will handle all these and somehow waking up this morning, I felt very comforted. Is this your special way of teaching me? I know that despite the fact you are not here physically you are in your own special way looking over us. Thank you, brother.

Austin

Updates

2008-08-13T19:00:00.003+08:00

Hubby

How's things up there?

Our company is going to Chiangmai/Chiangrai (ur company's trip in 2004) for this year's incentive trip. This is the place u suggested and Endy agreed to revisit this place again. We fixed the period from 15-19 November 2008. I remember u told us that this is a nice place and Endy agreed. I'm sure u will visit this place with us rite? Even if u dun....we will still bring u with us (in our heart...haha).

Faithfully yours

Wife

2008-08-12T22:35:00.002+08:00

Uncle Austin,

Didnt see your post for since Friday.. How are you? You busy? Speak to us soon..
Anyway, as much as I want you to come back for many many reasons, I guess its only fair to think from your point of view. Because we love you so much, we will give you time la.. We dont want you to be sad.. You want you to be happy so when the time is right, I know you will be back home with us. Maybe there is something else that has been planned for you.. I know Uncle CH and gong gong will look after you in Hong Kong but do post regularly so the cousins know you are safe..(dont just talk to the aunties la...the cousins also miss you mah..) .. Muaks

Uncle Chye Hin, miss you more & more! Thanks for looking over Cady and the positivity energy you give me whenever I think of you! Trying very hard not to think about how you look those last days but your handsome prosperous face! So proud to be your niece! And you have given me lots of moltivation to do what i have to do and I love you so dearly for that! Our family has never been closer and I am so happy I can now be a big jie jie to my beautiful cousins, my 3 super cute sisters and an extra helper & niece to my 'forever young' 4 aunties and Austin. Most importantly, to be able to make you proud of me!

Love, Connie