THE RAYMOND WE REMEMBER

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

CNY

Sai Wa De Ka,

Is CNY again, Bee Bee is right. Am sure all of us missed you being around. Yesterday we had our usual card game and guess what?? This year we all learned to play MJ. Bought a foldable table and Austin bought the MJ set. All the kids are into playing MJ too.

U know..when we were playing, you image kept flashing through me mind leh. Was hoping that you could be around us, laughing, teahcing and enjoying the new game with us. As usual lah, Jackie always the blurr one. Wow Tai Jie learned fast men, she learn belly fast. Well......... a few time, i want to mention your name.....but.... wori it may bring tears to all lor. Your two princess and wife came too. Mei Mei is bigger and better behave now. Joyln is so sweet, she shared with me that sometime she will try to teach her sister, but..... the young girl is always trying to siam lor.... Am proud with Joyln for that. Guess we all very much want you to be around us......especially this time of the year, but....sigh....Well am sure you are with us in spirit.

Missing you,

Bee Tee

Y 10:53:00 AM

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Saturday, January 24, 2009

MEMORIES OF YOU

Brother,
Guess this is the first time we going to spend the CNY without u. i believe everybody in the family (include yr both angels n wife) will always remember the sweet times we share together.remember u drive us(all the Bees) all the way to choa chu kang to get sheng yu n seafood, help mum to prepare for Chinese New Year n bringing her wherever she need to go to.u never say no to her. if only u r still here to help her with all these. she will be very glad. anyway,

Austin is back for CNY this year. hope he will enjoy our reunion very much. hope he will have a change of heart to come back to Singapore PERMANENTLY. he may look strong , but his heart still feel heavy each time when he leave.Telling us he really wish to stay but then again WORK COMMITMENTS. Austin, we really want u to come back. u noe u r our only brother now, n we need u to be around ..

u r gone for 6 months. during these 6 months, things change, people change, weather change, but there is one thing that will never change. and that is , the thoughts of u . every time, while doing the tpa claim, i always come across a name "Tan Chye Hin"'s claim. i will pause for awhile, then yr memories will come to me again. each time when i talk about u to my children n yr wife. i noe i am selfish ,still clinging on to u, but u noe i am not the only one! there r someone out there too thinking of u too, don't want to let u go too! so don't blame me.i noe i must try to let go, but i tell u, saying is easy and doing it is difficult. i hope time can reverse when u r still here, then i will not have to TO LET YOU GO!
KAREN

Y 9:33:00 AM

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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Letting go..

Its been a long time since i wrote anything or even coming here because even though we were all busy with our lives, its getting harder to let you go. And especially so during holidays or family gatherings. Am sure all of us somewhat sees your image, feel your presence with us and we all really wish we could just be able to hear your laughter again.

New Years Eve
While many people celebrated the countdown and had fun, I was very sure the aunties and grandma will think of you like i do. I tried to sms them to wish them and remind them to be strong but once the clock strikes 12, I was so sad..So sad that I cannot spend the first New Year or Chinese New Year with you.. I wondered what kind of funny sms you would have sent to us or maybe plan some events for us that day..

Grandma's birthday
While everyone tried their very best to keep smiling and joking, deep down i know it was very hard especially for Grandma. Even though i werent around to celebrate her birthday with you around last year, I remembered the photos you took. So funny and so happy. I wished i could be there with you. And just the day before while everyone was planning the dinner, I told myself 'If Uncle is here, he will sure be the first one to organize it and sure make it very happy and fun for everyone. Perhaps maybe getting his princesses to draw grandma a card or something.. " Because I know you love Grandma alot and you will ensure that she is happy on her birthday or any other day! The aunties know you are a filial son thats why i understand why they are making extra effort. Don't worry uncle, we know you want us to take good care of Grandma, we will! Its one of your wishes so we will do it!

Letting go..
To all the aunties and uncle and cousin,

Yesterday I met my GP who asked me if there was a death in the family recently. When i said yes, he said that Uncle is stuck. He is in between because we all still refuse to let him go. I broke down inside the clinic. How he know? Well, he said he sensed it. He said cut off the cord, let him go. He is going to be up there watching over all of you. Light a white candle for him and tell him he can go. That everything is taken care of here. But i just told my GP, its hard and we cannot bear to let him go..

I dont know how to react except cry..I dont know to believe or not. After thinking the whole night, I somehow believe it coz we all still imagine he is here, thinks he is just at the corner. I sometimes sit in my room looking at the corner and seeing him standing here watching over Cady's cot smiling..

Now i understand how it feels when my best fren told me before that after her mum passed away, she will break down everytime someones mention or something reminded her of her mum even till now. Emotional person or not, I just think its because I really miss you..alot..

So aunties, uncle austin and cousins, you think we should all light a white candle this weekend for Uncle?

Love, connie

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Y 6:25:00 PM

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Sunday, January 4, 2009

Remembering You still

CH

Last Friday, we brought mum out for dinner to celebrate her birthday- her 72nd. Thought we will do it before Jo and Pam went to Hong Kong.

You know just before dinner begins, mum mention you to me (you are not he to eat with us) ...... it brought immediate tears to my eyes. Yes, it seems like only recently that we had that dinner with mum at the teochew restaurant. You were clowning around alot and brought much laughter to the occasion. Wished you were once again the clown.... but all these can only be in our memories and only be seen through the pictures taken then.

I am still thankful that we had this occasion, though many could not make it.... especially your family. Every occasion is worth remembering especially those spent with our loved ones..... and this year, we have our little spark "Caddy" who brought much joy with her ever cheerful disposition. What a gem! I am sure you must be very proud of your little grand niece!

We still want to remember you for who you are to us bro:

Loving, Caring and Cheerful son, husband, father, brother and uncle and granduncle!

Love
Jackie

Y 6:47:00 PM

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Jackie,

You are right, am sure all of us misses him, even though non of us want to mention his name. When mum was in my car on the way there, we passed the Teochew Restuarant (remembered i was the one who suggested), she mentioned about our diner there. But i told her that we will not go there anymore. Somehow just never want to remember that place anymore lor. Whenever i see the picture on this blog with his funny face, it may me tear. Guess we are all going thru the same way lor.

BT